|"Fraidy Cat-updated" 3"x 3" graphite on paper ©2015|
All that year, I had been studying about how to start a business. I really wanted to find a place for my art in the world, to do something good with it, but what? Everything I read talked about creating a "brand", something that identifies you and your business. Something that is uniquely you. "Good grief", I said to myself, "what could that possibly be?" I don't really have a stunning artistic vision. In fact, I often questioned whether I was a "real" artist. I happen to like to paint flowers and cats most of the time. Occasionally a landscape, oh my, truly shocking, innovative stuff, I know. I thought about this question for weeks.
One afternoon, I remember lying on the bed and just thinking about it. What in the world do I do better than anything? Then it hit me. Fear. I am the complete Mistress of Worry. I am pretty much anxious about everything. Permanently.Terminally. Anxious. Since I was about six, the world has often seemed a scary place to me. Anxiety attacks were standard, I just didn't have a name for them until I was 21.
I thought to myself "I am a complete "fraidy cat.". I always hated being teased about that, but I decided I was finally going to "own it". I did a quick sketch. This little drawing reflected exactly what I felt like emotionally then, especially with all the new things I was facing. I thought, I can talk to people about being afraid and what I have learned about moving forward. Especially when it comes to creating.
|My"Fraidy Cat-original" 1.5"x 1.5" pen on paper ©2013|
So, that was 2013 and now it is 2015? Exactly. It has taken me that long to work up the courage to open up and talk about this and maybe if I am lucky, I can help myself and some other people along the way too. I believe creative expression in any form is a key part of being happy, at least it is for me.
Disclaimer: Now, I know, there are truly horrible things that happen in the world when people have every right to be terrified. I am not talking about those things. I am talking about anxiety. I realize I am not an expert or psychologist, but I have read and learned some good things from people who are. I truly know that I don't know everything. ;0 Although, helpful suggestions are always appreciated. :)
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Happy Fear-less Year! Thanks so much for reading.