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Friday, May 22, 2015

A Different Direction

"Good Morning" 8"x10" oil on panel,Gessobord ©2014 Tina M Welter, Three boats in Island Bay, New Zealand.
"Good Morning" 8"x10" oil on panel,Gessobord ©2014
My friend Evelyn here in New Zealand commissioned this painting for her husband's birthday last October.  She wanted a seascape with the boats in Island Bay. I haven't considered landscape painting to be one of my strengths, every time I have tried it in the past, I haven't been completely satisfied with the results. I did, however, want very much to please my friend.

I can never tell if this irresistible pull to please people is a positive or negative thing in my life.  On the plus side, I will face all sorts of fears and resistance to please someone or a cause I care about, but on the other darker side, I will also trample over what is best for myself to achieve this goal. Ouch! Does anyone else struggle with wielding this double-edged sword?

After taking over 200 pictures of Island Bay, stressing mightily over boat arrangements and painting ocean waves, (arrrrgh!) I felt reasonably happy with the result.  More importantly, Evelyn and her husband were happy with the painting!

I am bringing all this up because of my interview with the gallery last week. My darling cats were not a good fit there. After thinking about this situation, I proposed painting a series based around the rock cairns I photographed here last fall in Island Bay. I wouldn't have had the courage to even offer this if I hadn't completed that painting for Evelyn. The owner is interested to see them and now I need to get busy painting.

I am hoping I did the right thing.  I love my cats and I wanted to stay true to my earlier commitment to paint a monthly cat art piece this year.  I'm also excited to try the new series, but I have a sneaky suspicion that I may be putting too much on my plate again, which will result in feelings of overwhelm and anxiety.  (There is also my album of songs about grief that I promised to finish, my regular blog and newsletters to write, plus looking for a part-time job...)

It's a wonderful thing to be able to dream up more projects than I can possibly do.  It's not so fun to have to decide which ones will get to exist in reality.  Wish me luck, I realize am not very good at saying "no."


>^-^<  Tina 

Rock cairns at Island Bay ©2014 Tina M Welter
My inspiration for the new painting series



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2 comments:

Julia Waldron said...

Your painting is so beautiful and way to have the courage to do something different no matter the motivation:) I think it is so hard to create something for someone else. Thank you for the inspiration and good luck with all projects you have going!

Tina Welter said...

Thanks Julia for your kind comment, it is anxiety producing to create art for someone else! I really do appreciate your encouragement.