Bird & Sunrise photo

Bird & Sunrise photo
Because "someday" is today!

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Fair Warning

5"x 7" oil on "Gessobord" copyright 2012 Tina M. Welter.
"Guardian" 5"x 7" oil on "Gessobord" c.2012 TMW
"Guardian" is the title for the fourth painting of the swan series. I love this painting because it represents a concept that I have struggled with my whole life, mainly that it is ok to protect some time and space for myself to create.

I has become very clear to me since we turned our lives upside down last fall that I really have a "people pleasing" problem. When people ask me what I am doing while Jeff is in school, I say "I am working on my painting skills." Many people can't understand that I am perfectly happy being in the apartment and doing this, they want to suggest other activities because I "must be bored".

I feel like I finally have to stand up and guard my decision and my time from my own guilt and from others. After years of working for other people, this is a lifetime opportunity for me. It is hard for me to tell people "no". I want to feel approval, not judgment, but that is one thing about being an older, grayer goose...I know I don't have all the time in the world to do the things that matter to me.


Dawn Chandler said...

I especially love the play of light and shadow in the water. Nicely done!

It would seem your efforts at "working on my painting skills" is paying off!

Now how about turning that "answer" that you provide for other people into a mantra for your Self: "I am an artist. I am painting."


Happy painting!

The Artist's Life Experiment said...

Thanks Dawn, I do feel like I am making progress with more consistent practice. Love the reminder for the '"mantra", you got right to the heart of it; my own believe in myself has to be firmly in place, then it won't matter what the other people say.

Anonymous said...

I like the new swan. It looks endearingly crotchety.

I rafted the San Juan river last week and there were a lot of canadian geese there. Somewhat like the swan. Birds are the best.

- Logan

The Artist's Life Experiment said...

"Endearingly Crotchety" is a perfect description!